I'm not talking "hopes and dreams here. I'm talking about the ones that we have when we're sleeping. I think I've talked about this before. No, it was daydreaming I mentioned.
Apparently, there's a problem with anything that involves any type of dreaming. *blasphemy*
I love my dreams 90% of the time. I had an epic one the other night that should be turned into a book or a movie. It was fabulous.
Then there are those other dreams. The depressing, haunting, annoying dreams that make you remember people that you'd rather not. The ones that force you to re-live painful times.
I hate those dreams. They always manifest if I'm doing well. When I start to forget people that have treated me badly for no reason. Or if I start accepting that some people will never be what they were, again.
Self-sabotage. I think that my psyche can't function when I'm at ease. It doesn't want me to be secure. I often wonder, why? The only thing I can figure is that something has been unresolved. I mean, I know for a fact that it has. For unknown reasons, I never get to express my feelings to people. They unload their troubles and feelings onto me and then walk away once they realize that I might have something to say. So, it takes me longer to "forgive and forget." Why then, once I've done this, must I dream of these people and get worked up all over again?
Does this happen to anyone else? I'm sure it does. How do you cope with it? How do you let go of it?
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