Moving blog?

Maybe.  I've been bombarded with commercials for Wix.com.  I liked the look of it.  Since it's free, (for the most part.) I decided to check it out to see if this little blog would do better on a different site.  I'm not sure if I'll remain on Wix, but I'm going to test it out for a while to see how I like it.  It seems easier to add pages and sub-pages.  No coding necessary.  I can put my poems on one page (I think.) and the 365 Days of Writing experiment can be in one place too. :)

If I can keep these things better organized, I'll definitely make the move permanent.

Yarrow's Corner on Wix

Envious

It's not easy being a creatively driven person in the world today.  (Maybe it never was.)  It's a lot easier to get discouraged now.  Especially since it's so simple for everyone to share their talents with the world,  which is awesome, of course.

I look on Pinterest and immediately want to throw my poems into the fire.   I will never be good enough.  Why do I bother trying? 

Because, whether or not someone else thinks my poems are awesome or not, is irrelevant.   They are the words I use to express my feelings and my experiences.  They are unique to who I am. 

I try to remember that when I'm reading something particularly good and wish that I had at least half the talent that "so and so" has, but it's hard.

We all want to do well.  We all want to be appreciated.  It's human nature to want to be accepted by our peers, or to at least be equal to them.  I never feel like I'm good enough, or will ever be good enough.

This is the thing I hope to change in 2017.  There's always room for improvement, but there's no reason to ridicule what I've already accomplished.

I'll find a way through the negative feelings.

I wish that there were people reading this blog.  I'd ask, "What are some things that you do to bring yourself out of the envious cycle?  How do you put faith in yourself and the things that you create?  How do you learn to appreciate your work without constantly picking it apart?" (I do believe that it's healthy to critique your own work, but I also believe that there comes a point where that needs to stop.)

How do I get to that point?

2017

My goals for 2017 are pretty much the same as they were for 2016 and subsequent years.  There is a whole list of things that I didn't accomplish last year because I actually forgot that I had written a list of goals until circling back to 2016's post to see what may have changed.  Classic me.

I have hopes for 2017 though.  I want to put my best foot forward and try to educate myself and enlighten myself on various topics and issues.  I want to strive to become the best version of myself that I can be and let go of all the negativity that latched onto me in 2016.  I want to focus on perfecting my chosen crafts/hobbies.

I'm stagnant, spiritually and creatively.  These are both aspects of myself that I need to enhance for my own sanity.  I've given up on the standard, diet, exercise, healthy lifestyle resolutions.  Mainly because I love food too much, and when I'm miserable I eat.  When I'm mad, I eat.  When I'm restless, I eat.  So, if I can fix the core problem, perhaps my habits will change in a normal and conducive manner that will last.

2016 was a shit year.  Mostly because I allowed it to be. Partly because I've had lingering and unresolved issues since childhood that I carry around with me like treasured possessions.  In my inability to let go of things I don't understand, I've given my shadow-self immeasurable control over my life. I'm hoping to begin my sojourn into Shadow Work in 2017, (a task that I had planned since 2015.) and start on the road to finding myself and my purpose.

My self-sabotaging nature will try to deter me from succeeding, but I will do my level best to be a stronger person.  I can't be messing around anymore.  Stuff needs to get done, and I need to woman up and do it.  I need to be on my own team and strive to enhance my little life.

I also want to do more with this blog.  I made it to a year, let's see if I can do 2 years!