Envious

It's not easy being a creatively driven person in the world today.  (Maybe it never was.)  It's a lot easier to get discouraged now.  Especially since it's so simple for everyone to share their talents with the world,  which is awesome, of course.

I look on Pinterest and immediately want to throw my poems into the fire.   I will never be good enough.  Why do I bother trying? 

Because, whether or not someone else thinks my poems are awesome or not, is irrelevant.   They are the words I use to express my feelings and my experiences.  They are unique to who I am. 

I try to remember that when I'm reading something particularly good and wish that I had at least half the talent that "so and so" has, but it's hard.

We all want to do well.  We all want to be appreciated.  It's human nature to want to be accepted by our peers, or to at least be equal to them.  I never feel like I'm good enough, or will ever be good enough.

This is the thing I hope to change in 2017.  There's always room for improvement, but there's no reason to ridicule what I've already accomplished.

I'll find a way through the negative feelings.

I wish that there were people reading this blog.  I'd ask, "What are some things that you do to bring yourself out of the envious cycle?  How do you put faith in yourself and the things that you create?  How do you learn to appreciate your work without constantly picking it apart?" (I do believe that it's healthy to critique your own work, but I also believe that there comes a point where that needs to stop.)

How do I get to that point?