There are so many things that I wish I could do. My head is full of ideas and projects but I lack the motivation, skill or time to get it done. I'm frustrated with myself and my lack of ambition. I'm frustrated with the way I handle things. This is life though. We aren't meant to get it right the first time around.
I have a bad habit of thinking about all the things that I "should" have now. I don't know why I dwell on it. I guess part of me knows that I could do better. Part of me believes that I can still do anything that I want to do if I only took the time to make it happen.
Then I get frustrated that I've wasted so much time belittling myself when I could have used that energy towards achieving something. I get caught up in a self pitying and self loathing cycle and nothing that I do gets me out of it.
Useless.
I keep telling myself that one day I'll straighten myself out but I don't. What a pain in the butt I am.
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